Even as I typing right now, I feel silly for doing so. But I made myself a promise that I will do it no matter how stupid it felt in the morning.
Something happened to me last night (in fact it's probably around the 20 something times it happened). It happened around 4 am (I don't know for sure because I was scared shitless for 30 minutes). I don't know what it's called, but here is what it felt like:
In the middle of the night, you woke up for no reason at all. You are conscience and alert (more so than when you are awake). Right after you open your eyes, you have the feeling that you are not alone. More importantly, you cannot move... at all. You feel a sense of what I can only describe as "intense fear" and "presence of evil". There's usually something blurry at the very limit of your field of vision (usually, it happened differently at times). You know "it" does not belong in your room. You try to move but you can't. You know "it" is watching you or doing something to you (sometimes you feel something carassing your skin, something like air). After a minute or two, you would probably try to scream; but you can't. No voice will come out (I am dead serious). Eventually after probably 3 - 5 minutes (usually) it's... gone. It's just gone. You lose that sense of INTENSE DREAD like THAT *snap*. You will as safe as ever RIGHT afterwards.
That's the basic of what it feels like. I have some more disturbing encounters. Once I could almost see a solid person (for god's sake, I sworn I saw clothing). Another time I saw a fully form shape (blurry) float right across the room IN MY FIELD OF VISION. I could've sworn one time, it "tried" to communicate with me (Once it's gone, I lost all memory of what it "said"). I do believe it didn't use words, but rather "thoughts" to communicate (It does make sounds, but you undersand the sounds. It sounds like someone whispering with a throaty voice). Last night, it was the icing on cake. I woke up and I just KNEW it was going to happen again... and it did. This time I saw the shape RIGHT in front of me... it charged at me (my head) and when it "hit", I could hear a sort of "ringing" like "Hummmmmmm" in my ears. (it's either a ringing or a female voice saying "Hummmmmm", which REALLY scares the shit out of me). But since I have so much experience with this thing I was able to come out of the "trance" like state really fast and I said "Go Away!" (in my mind, cause I still couldn't use my voice). Surely enough, it was gone (but I am certain it stuck around for about 30 minutes). Because even AFTER I regained motor control, I still feel a lingering sense of dread for about 30 minutes (then it went away like THAT *snap*).
The first time it happened to me I didn't remember when (because I thought it was a bad dream or something), when it happened repeatedly, I took notice. It stopped for a while then it happened again after I moved. It then stopped for a REALLY long time (I was convinced it's gone for good). Then it recently resurfaced (it comes in batches?). Last night was the last straw, I had to tell someone (I told my friends, and they either get scared (girls) or they don't believe me... except one guy, he remember something similar, but he doesn't want to go into details). It was the worst last night because I was Mobile for 30 minutes in DREAD and the thing went into me! I heard it !
I tried convincing myself that it's a good thing (if I get to make contact with whatever it is). But everytime it happens, I am too scared to do anything. I was surprised I was able to will it to go away last night (I had lots of practice in this, sadly... it's about 20 some odd times).
Am I going crazy? I know that it happens to other people too (some of my friend who are scared told me that their parents experienced it). What is it? What the hell should I do? I am a night person, I love the darkness... I write the best at night with a bottle of Smirnoff. I don't know why things like this happens to me. I don't deserve this bull shit. I am half willing to just sleep in the day and work/study at night...
Can someone please help me out here? If you felt anything similar, share ! So I know I am not just "seeing" things (I don't even use drugs, and I am a science major; I DONT believe in crap like this... I want to know what it is).
Something happened to me last night (in fact it's probably around the 20 something times it happened). It happened around 4 am (I don't know for sure because I was scared shitless for 30 minutes). I don't know what it's called, but here is what it felt like:
In the middle of the night, you woke up for no reason at all. You are conscience and alert (more so than when you are awake). Right after you open your eyes, you have the feeling that you are not alone. More importantly, you cannot move... at all. You feel a sense of what I can only describe as "intense fear" and "presence of evil". There's usually something blurry at the very limit of your field of vision (usually, it happened differently at times). You know "it" does not belong in your room. You try to move but you can't. You know "it" is watching you or doing something to you (sometimes you feel something carassing your skin, something like air). After a minute or two, you would probably try to scream; but you can't. No voice will come out (I am dead serious). Eventually after probably 3 - 5 minutes (usually) it's... gone. It's just gone. You lose that sense of INTENSE DREAD like THAT *snap*. You will as safe as ever RIGHT afterwards.
That's the basic of what it feels like. I have some more disturbing encounters. Once I could almost see a solid person (for god's sake, I sworn I saw clothing). Another time I saw a fully form shape (blurry) float right across the room IN MY FIELD OF VISION. I could've sworn one time, it "tried" to communicate with me (Once it's gone, I lost all memory of what it "said"). I do believe it didn't use words, but rather "thoughts" to communicate (It does make sounds, but you undersand the sounds. It sounds like someone whispering with a throaty voice). Last night, it was the icing on cake. I woke up and I just KNEW it was going to happen again... and it did. This time I saw the shape RIGHT in front of me... it charged at me (my head) and when it "hit", I could hear a sort of "ringing" like "Hummmmmmm" in my ears. (it's either a ringing or a female voice saying "Hummmmmm", which REALLY scares the shit out of me). But since I have so much experience with this thing I was able to come out of the "trance" like state really fast and I said "Go Away!" (in my mind, cause I still couldn't use my voice). Surely enough, it was gone (but I am certain it stuck around for about 30 minutes). Because even AFTER I regained motor control, I still feel a lingering sense of dread for about 30 minutes (then it went away like THAT *snap*).
The first time it happened to me I didn't remember when (because I thought it was a bad dream or something), when it happened repeatedly, I took notice. It stopped for a while then it happened again after I moved. It then stopped for a REALLY long time (I was convinced it's gone for good). Then it recently resurfaced (it comes in batches?). Last night was the last straw, I had to tell someone (I told my friends, and they either get scared (girls) or they don't believe me... except one guy, he remember something similar, but he doesn't want to go into details). It was the worst last night because I was Mobile for 30 minutes in DREAD and the thing went into me! I heard it !
I tried convincing myself that it's a good thing (if I get to make contact with whatever it is). But everytime it happens, I am too scared to do anything. I was surprised I was able to will it to go away last night (I had lots of practice in this, sadly... it's about 20 some odd times).
Am I going crazy? I know that it happens to other people too (some of my friend who are scared told me that their parents experienced it). What is it? What the hell should I do? I am a night person, I love the darkness... I write the best at night with a bottle of Smirnoff. I don't know why things like this happens to me. I don't deserve this bull shit. I am half willing to just sleep in the day and work/study at night...
Can someone please help me out here? If you felt anything similar, share ! So I know I am not just "seeing" things (I don't even use drugs, and I am a science major; I DONT believe in crap like this... I want to know what it is).