" But I knew for myself I kind of need to keep my neichs " I don't understand
My niches. Yeah bad spelling.
Things like advertising i am in a relationship, and what kind it is. Not presenting as just a single woman available to be whatever a client wants to fantasized, I have my own story to tell.
Some people will purposely not book because I am in a relationship, or what they might assume that relationship represents, (been told it could be interpreted as he's my pimp, which he isn't.) but I'm also not one able to hide that I do this as part of my relationship. The ability to talk freely about my dynamic with people I see, and not pretend it doesn't exhist to protect their fantasy idea of me.
I've been warned in the past that for many it would be an instant reason for them to choose to pass. But for me, I can't pretend to be something I am not either. Especially since if it weren't for my relationship, I wouldn't be able to enjoy this as part of my personal life improvement. Doing this alone. I couldn't come back to it, but doing this as my Master's slave, I am getting to live out my own fantasies come reality.